‘I haven’t had this much fun since Thursday!’
That was my words to Rob and Nerys as we drove away from an awesome scooter excursion in Knysna Forest. I have truly had the most insane week EVER.
In the car driving back, Rob turned to me and said ‘What happened to my scared Yolandi?’.
I sat back and thought wow, he is right, something in me has changed and I think I am loving it!!!
So to put it all in context – we have Rob’s cousins over from the UK visiting and we have planned a lovely fun filled trip for them. So last weekend I ended up Shark Cage Diving with Nerys, I was so scared getting in that cold water waiting for the magnificent beasts to swim past, but I sucked it up and did it and man was I glad. I could not stop smiling!
Then on Thursday, we went paragliding off Signal Hill. As we got there I looked at this and thought – I am going to be running off a mountain and hopefully gliding into the air. Needless to say we lifted off and it was the most beautiful experience, amazing views, fun acrobatics and just breathtaking.
Then today we went on a Scootour in the Knysna Forest – it is basically scooters with very fat wheels going downhill in the forest, including mountain bike single track. Me being the absolute speed fearer, I started off and thought what the hell am I doing, this is freaking fast and uber scary. The beauty of the forest made that first scary descent worth it, and then as I started building my confidence I chatted to my son Ben and told him that mommy is putting her fear on the seat in the car and will fetch it when I am done with the single track. And my goodness was it amazing, I just kept asking my lovely guardian angel to look after me, lots of breathing and focus and yippee I made it and I totally loved it.
I also had to laugh as I told Rob that on Thursday morning when I woke up I chose two cards from my angle pack – and it was ‘Fun’ and ‘Adventure’.
So on the last two Angel retreats, it became very clear to me that my Guides were really on a mission to turn my awareness to having more fun in my life. To not take things so serious! As someone on a continuous spiritual journey, my initial thoughts were that this is serious stuff and therefore I should be serious about this. But now I am learning that actually I need to put the balance right… it is all about being all in and developing myself spiritually but I need to make sure that I see the bright, fun and adventurous side of life. That I smile, laugh and not take myself serious. That I get that inner child back into play, that kiddie wants to have fun and if that kiddie inside is not happy then she acts out big time!
So this week was a beautiful lesson in getting my groove back, letting the fun in and also letting the fear sit on the chair whilst I smile my head off because it ended up being fun! I loved the smiling and how my insides felt alive. I also love the fact that I could connect with my little boy again, I loved the afternoon on the merry-go-round and see-saw with him and had good old mommy fun with my baby.
So go out and have some fun and see how the balance comes back. I am going to make a huge effort to keep this up, making sure that I don’t forget again to have fun!
Thank you Guides for making me aware. You always know what is good for me and I am glad I listened. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
Lots of love