I love this!
Read it and live it.
So today was a HUGE step for me and I am sitting here so filled with gratitude for everything that has led to this moment.
I mentioned before that Diane (my Reiki Master) messaged me a few weeks back and said that I needed to conduct a workshop, now this was something that I had been thinking about for a while, but it conveniently always got put at the back of the to do list. And then on the day the message came through it was just after I heard about the radio interview and I knew this was obviously the Universe trying to get me to start moving my butt towards where I am suppose to go.
A while back, before embarking on reading the Akashic Records, I had done a past life regression session and working with the intent of trying to figure out what I was suppose to do I had seen myself standing in front of loads of people talking and teaching. Now this scared the crap out of me! If you know me well, you will know that I have a near phobia about speaking in public, I literally want to throw up and my brain just goes blank. So me standing up in front of anyone and talking was not going to happen! Funnily enough when I was at school I did a lot of acting and stage performances, but that was pretty easy as it wasn’t me up there, it was the part that I was playing. But when it came to me having to talk as myself I just could not do it.
So fast forward to November and all of a sudden I have so speak on a radio show and conduct a workshop, I mean really!! Were my Guides having a laugh? I mean they have an awesome sense of humour but this was taking it a bit far!
Anyway, I committed to running the workshop on the 12th and literally had a couple of days to come up with what we would ‘workshop’! So the thinking had to start and it was so much fun to come up with the whole concept. Nothing like a bit of pressure to get the creative juices flowing. And so ‘Discover your Divinity’ was born.
Diane sent out the advert and we were booked up instantly. Dammit, obviously this was something people would be interested in!
I had such a lovely week preparing for the workshop today, and by meditating and really connecting with my Guides and Angels everything just magically seemed to come together. I woke up this morning a bundle of nerves and trying to breath…. I kept on wondering what would happen if I just ran away and didn’t pitch!! But I committed and I had to show up, so I sat down, started doing my favourite balance breathing and relaxed a bit. I read some beautiful guidance that I got from Glynis and then invoked Archangel Gabriel, put on my favourite crystal jewellery, used my beautiful AuroSoma Quintessence and sprayed myself with some beautiful Wild Peach Tree Essences and off I went. Listening to some awesome music on the way there I decided that I need to focus on just having fun today, and to be guided!
And that is exactly how it all worked out! It was such an amazing morning with such beautiful people. We had such a special morning and I can’t even begin to explain to you how grateful I am for the time I spent with all of them.
So my intense fear of speaking in public has now been faced! It was such a mountain for me! And now it feels like it was really nothing to worry about…. I now realise that FEAR really just is ‘False Evidence Appearing Real’.
I am so grateful for amazing people in my life that supports me and pushes me to where I need to be going. I am grateful that I am able to share my knowledge with special Souls out there. I am grateful that my Guides and Angels helped me through today. I am grateful that I am learning to TRUST. I am grateful that I am learning to get out of the way and believe that the best outcome will happen. I am grateful for being here, right now.
Lots of love
I am actually writing this a week later as a week ago at this time I was driving in the car on my way to the most frightening experience of my entire life. Well, maybe not, but it sure as hell felt like!
During the week I was called by Alain from Zone Radio to do an interview on the Akashic Records on the Sunday evening. If you know anything about me, you will know that I have this crazy fear of speaking in public – so I had to laugh after I put the phone down. The Universe basically just kicked me in the butt in a big way!! Refusing the interview would be crazy as it is a great way to spread the word about the Akashic Records, so I really had no choice. Sure I had a choice to say no but that would just be insane, so I put on my big girl panties and threw myself into the deep end.
The whole week I worked on myself and trying to prepare for the interview, and then on Tuesday Diane messaged me and said I should come and present a workshop on Akashic Records at Amber Moon. Yet another thing that was sort of on my to do list but kept on dropping to the bottom, so yet again I thought what the hell seeing that I am in a week of getting out of comfort zone let’s just roll with it. So first one booked and set in stone! Another fear to face.
So I survived the interview, you can listen to it on the site, and it was such great fun and I loved sharing the knowledge about the Akashic Records. It was such a special evening and afterwards I got to spend some much needed date time with Rob – celebrating the interview and catching up and having a lovely time!
I am so looking forward to the workshop now and getting the opportunity to work with some special people. I will just keep on working on this fear, but at least after the interview I thought to myself if I could survive that I could pretty much survive any other thing the Universe chucked my way. I also realise that I have a huge responsibility to share my knowledge and to serve others through this, so no matter how scared I am of doing all of this I know that I will always get through it and I know that my Guides and Angels will always be there holding my hand and making sure that the right message gets to the right person in the room.